Crazy

“so i let crazy
take a spin
then i let crazy
settle in
kicked off my shoes
shut reason out”
Tori Amos
Letting a little crazy settle in. Guess thats where I feel most comfortable.
Just crazy.
Not doing what I know is best for me. Crazy.
Gravity is pulling me towards crazy. Very vulnerable to it.

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Sex after baby

No one told me I would WANT to have sex but have difficulty finding time. Hubby has to go to bed early to get up at 5am. Baby wants to go to bed at 12am. This is uncool.
I really thought the lack of sex was cuz of the baby hormone thing and [...]

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Gratitude Attitude

Thankful for:
Healthy baby boy
Gummy smiles
Almost laughter
Time to spend with him
Sticky poopy diapers
Snuggly little body
Cutest little hands and feet
Tiniest little knee caps
Chunky tiny wrists
Beautiful eyes staring at me
Gurgles and blurps of trying to talk
Soft smooth skin
Sniffing his baby head
Kissing his little cheeks
Loving him so much
thank you, thank you, thank you universe for giving me the best [...]

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Mommyhood

Its ineffable this mommyhood thing. Looking down at this little being. I am so filled with love.
I don’t even have the words to express what I am feeling.
Love him. Just cuz.

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See here’s the thing…

this really isn’t gonna give me closure. I can’t say what I want. Things have changed and there is no going back. Obviously I come on to strong but the thing is its probably been too long for deep meaningful conversation.
Can anything good come from rekindling an old relationship into a [...]

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