Ok now I am getting sick of this. I am sick of the pain. I want to just be used to the pain all ready. I want to bear the burden of this pain with dignity, but I am failing miserably. More of my story here.
I am so angry and I feel that there is no way out. I don’t want surgery but I can’t take the pain. I just want to be cured. I feel sorry for myself that my two options are live with the pain or surgery.
I feel angry that this may effect my ability to have children without the aide of medical intervention. I am angry and I feel stuck. I am sad and I am in pain. I am currently treating one of the many patient’s that I have treated over the years who also suffer with endometriosis. She had 7 surgeries. SEVEN!
I DON’T WANT SURGERY. I DON’T WANT PAIN.
I hate this disease. I hate it.
I cried last night in the car before going into the house . I am still amazed at the emotion that I feel over this. I am trying to be patient with myself. But really, can’t I just get over this already?
Oh and one more thing-It hurts to have an orgasm! A f*cking orgasm hurts. It hurts before, I am fine during, and then I am in a lot of pain after. What the F*ck!
Try a simple change in your diet that I recommended to my step-daughter who had been suffering from ovarian cysts, endometriosis and enlarged lymph nodes under the armpits. Replace whatever chicken you are eating with hormone-free organically grown chicken and switch to hormone free brown eggs if you’re eating the white ones. One of the little known causes of ovarian cysts and other female problems is excess estrogen and estrogen immitators from hormone fed animals and disposable plastic water bottles for starters. In 2 1/2 months of making this change and without any medications, vitamins, exotic herbs, etc. my step daughter returned to completely normal health. No ovarian issues; only healthy tissue as verified by her gynecologist. And her lymph nodes had returned to normal by the time the radiologist and surgeon checked her in pre-op. Nothing was found, everything is healthy again. Surgeries cancelled. Once the sources of the problems was removed, her body healed itself completely.
I agree with eating organically and about the plastic containers. (see about endo page above) but unfortunately it doesn’t help all of us. I have been eating this way for quite a few years. I see a whole health M.D. who has helped me with these choices.
I recommend anyone with endo to do the same. Decreasing estrogen and estrogen imitators such as soy is a good idea as well as decreasing overall body inflammation by taking fish oil and OPC 3. OPC 3 contains pycogenol which in studies has been shown to help with endo pain. Although both decreasing inflammation and taking OPC 3 helps with the pain it does not stop the progression of the disease. This disease can silently effect fertility also.
I would caution against saying the body healed itself also. Pain is not an indicator of the disease. Her pain may be gone but I doubt that the endo is gone. If it was only a cyst and not a stoma/endo then it should have resolved anyway without surgery. I suggest follow up with a fertlity specialist for anyone who is planning on having children effected by this disease. It is very complicated and there is a lot of misinformation out there. Consults experts only.
Thanks so much for your post. Your step daughter is lucky to have your support. That is so important. I would caution against saying the body healed itself though. Pain is not an indicator of the disease. Her pain may be gone but I doubt that the endo is gone. If it was only a cyst and not a stoma/endo then it should have resolved anyway without surgery.
The style of writing is very familiar to me. Have you written guest posts for other blogs?