Where I am suppose to be

Feeling much more accepting today of my life and my responsibilities. Sometimes I feel like I have too much to do and sometimes I want more of a challenge. It seems that the problem is being happy right where I am.
I realized that feeling of escapism stems from feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. [...]

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Can you say overwhelmed?

Ok-feeling like there is so much to do. When I get like this I give myself a headache. Its only noon and I already have a whopper of a headache. I just feel like there is not enough time in the day. I don’t get it. I try to simplify. [...]

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Rollercoaster Girls

Like sisters
one and seperate
attached at the hip
Highs so high
and
lows so low
Hang on girl
you are in for a thrill
We start to climb
to the heavens
only to fall
so far from grace
emotional and raw
we get through
we always will
deep down
and
up above
laughing and crying
balancing the inside
with what is on the outside
Bodies on fire
we are like Phoenix
rising from ash
We start to climb
we [...]

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Her dream

I was at a wake in what appeared to be a living room. The body was lying on a 6 foot coffee table. It was covered in a sheet. We were gathered around the body and someone was comforting me-holding me and telling me it was going to be alright. My H [...]

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Crazy Lyrics and Video

“….found that i
i craved at all
saw me melt
into your
native shelter
where you carved my
name
paper tigers scare
and came
alive
through the dawn
to the light
to the turn
when you said
you could drive all night
all night
drive all night
so i let crazy
take a spin
then i let crazy
settle in
kicked off my shoes
shut reason out
[skip lyrics]
heard that
you were once
“temptation’s girl”
and as [...]

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More

There is an ache
a need
I think I fill it up
but it gaps back at me
I don’t know
How to satisfy
I wonder if this
is only felt
by me
I want
more
More of everything
to be
to be
to be
to be
to be
to be
more
I want it all

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Gaining Perspective

Just saw this on a TV show-”Dead Like Me”. Love that show. Rube the head grim reaper says this to one of his reapers regarding her loss of perspective. Its like a painting, when your too close all you see are blotches of color. When you are to far away, you [...]

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Only you

Finally with him
Everything else desolves
There was only one need
The need to be with him
I felt, and kept feeling
He made me feel
He has power
over me and
my body
Without him
I would flit away
My anchor
My everything

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Move

Thoughts are dulling
Feelings are numbing
Finally
Its been a while
I know I am still stuggling
This is like a fog
The edge is there
and I am light
I can hear the wind
It is blowing strong
A freight behind me
Wind pushes me
I turn to look
Nothing
Just branches blowing in the wind
I will come out
on the other side
There is still pain
Isn’t there always?
I am [...]

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